Monday, 16 March 2026

SAD NEWS

It's been a while since I last wrote here. 
A lot has happened in the last few months. 
I've had a couple of syays in hospital this year already.
I first went to Queens Hospital Christmas Day and was sent home with meds which didnt help and I got worse.
Then on 27th December I was rushed into RESUS at Queens Hospital with a chest infection, C.O.P.D flare-up, Pneumonia, I also had too much fluid around my heart 🫀and lungs 🫁that had to be drained as the fluid was stopping me from breathing properly, I was sent home after a couple of days without care and no-one around to help me. I really struggled on my own as I could hardly walk because I felt so weak and breathless, I kept being vomiting and diarrhoea everything I ate or drank went right through me, I literally hated foods and fluids. It was really scary and I thought the worst. 
The first person I saw was a community nurse 3 weeks later, all she done was BP and blood sugars.
Then I had to call paramedics as I was getting worse who phoned 111 to get new meds, which I thought had done the trick...Not! 
Then, I went along to the Hub in. Hornchurch, they put a canula in my hand and took blood, BP and blood sugars. I was told I've to go back next day to have fluids as I was dehydrated. I went back next day. The Dr wS was talking to me but I couldn't take in what she was saying, I'm glad my friend Ross was with me she understood what the Dr said. I said can I go home now, Dr said no you've got to go to hospital. I couldnt believe I had to go to hospital. I had to talk to 3 Dr's who told me they're keeping me in. Apparently, I was very ill. I had to many white blood cells, my potassium was very low, blood sugars was sky high, plus i had SEPSIS. 
They gave me loads of meds, tablets, and meds in IV. I couldnt believe what was happening.  
I had a couple of visitors while I was in hospital, my friend Ross who has stuck by me all the time bless her, and my friend Veronica from church who also visited me a few times at home.Veronica came a couple of times with her husband Simon who gave me communion. They also brought me a get well card with everyone's name one which I thought was so sweet. 

SAD NEWS:
Bert my ex-husband passed away 3rd February he was 75 years of age. I knew he was dying for quite a while bless him. Even though I knew this day was coming it was such a shock. He was at my home in the morning, he left me at 2:15pm and was gone at 4:15pm. He had a cardiac arrest.  His funeral was 10th March. R.I.P. Bert

Your forever in my heart
Love you loads. 








Monday, 1 December 2025

Feelings of The Unknown

 I'm feeling fearful for reasons unknown.I'm also feeling lost, another reason unknown.I've got butterflies in my stomach, feeling panic and anxiousness too Why do I feel like this? I'll have read my books again. 'Self Help for Your Nerves! and 'More Self Help for Your Nerves' I swear by both these books written byDr. Claire Weekes. 

Life can be a bitch at times, ya never know How ya going to feel like from day to day. I dont like this lost lonely feeling. Maybe, this happens to people in they're twilight years? The fear of the end creeping up on us. I feel like I dont know whether I'm coming or going or been and went.

Sandra



my feelings of late

I've been feeling stressed and fearful lately, and dont know why. My stomach has been churning over and fear takes over, and my thoughts have been all over the place. It feels like something bad is going to happen and I dont know which way to turn, what is this thing controlling my life?
I've been going to a Psychology group for 4 weeks to help me with these controlling unwanted feelings. I really dont know why I'm feeling like I do, its pathetic and I know it. How do I stop these awful feelings?
Sandra

SAD NEWS

It's been a while since I last wrote here.  A lot has happened in the last few months.  I've had a couple of syays in hospital this ...