Thoughts And Feelings

Ya know that feeling like ya being pushed and pushed in a corner and Ya can't escape, that's how I'm feeling right now, like everything is closing in on me. Silly really because there's no apparent reason for me to feel like this. I'm thinking I should have more me time for me to be on my own, am I being selfish I wonder!? Maybe it's because of all the continuous chest infections and the continuous steroids and antibiotics that's making me feel do-dally, panicky and lost within myself, Ive just got over another chest infection yet again, being ill all the time is getting to me I think? and coming off the meds, another feeling of not being able to see forward to tomorrow, fluttery feeling in the stomach which maybe nerves, fear, fear of what? of no tomorrow or what tomorrow brings? A confused cornered feeling. I seem to feel the same feeling everytime. 

I'm not one for feeling sorry for myself.

I'm just writing my thoughts and feelings down and wonder if other people get these feelings. 🤔

I always try to push myself and try to do things, I'm not lazy, just a lost feeling I suppose 🤷‍♀️

I'm probably thinking rubbish thoughts here again as usual. What am I like aye 🙄

Another thought has come to mind, maybe these thoughts and feelings could be because I'm not drinking enough water. I know that sounds silly too, but not drinking enough water can cause a lot of things to the brain and body. Note to brain, drink more water to see if that helps 🤔 we need to drink enough water for our bodies to function properly, this is definitely a sensible thought. 

Sandra